I have been reduced & stripped. I have come to the sad realisation, one that I've always known, but one that I never really did think applied to me, that it's a man's world. Perhaps today's when I accept this sad sad fact, else, I'll destroy what I hope to build. It would seem that how I see myself is different from how I ought to think of myself; I am really nothing. It's a sad sad realisation. I say this in theory that I'm nothing but dust, but I think it's time I accepted it for what it truly is; hard cold fact. That I'm nothing and may probably not amount to much, that is, nothing much outside the realms of keeping a home. The woman was made for the man I keep hearing. Recently, "a man's the best thing that can happen to a woman." Sighs.
An extension of the man is what a wife is, I'd thought I could be more than that; I'd hoped more for myself, my family. I thought I could have the best of both worlds; great plans & a head filled with lofty ideas, that was me. Boy was I wrong. Sadly in this, society's won, I give up. Only one thing my heart bleeds for; my daughter. I hand her over to God and pray that she achieves much more than just marriage. Amen.
In all this sha, na Eve I blame.
